So its finally been finalised. Although everyone including me, has been expecting it since 09 feb, i was still very nervous upon seeing the press release. I could feel my heart beating faster and faster, and my legs jelly-er and jelly-er, my mind getting more and more distracted. I started to make stupid mistakes at work, I started to do things at a much slower pace. The world almost turned upside down. I was chatting with Eliza and Zj and according to them, we somewhat felt similar. Did we?
Mr Chong msged me and said that results are usually released slightly earlier than proposed timing. But so what? I'm not going to collect them until at least after 4pm. I have totally lost confidence in myself and I couldnt care less abt the probability of going on stage and the chance to meet my cg-mates. I'm not trying to mean anything other than the fact that I'm scared of the day and I cant accept reality. Thats it.
The company dinner's on 01 Mar and the NMS tea session's on 03 Mar. Why must such a terrible day be sandwiched between 2 days that I'm looking forward to? Sigh.
